An Impending Change

"Do I sound like a nutjob?"

I am not sure what is going on, nor am I sure everything I am feeling is real but lately I have had a feeling that an impending change is coming in my life and I am not sure why.Nothing in my life has changed nor have I done anything (that I am aware of) that can cause any sort of cosmic large change. Nothing around me has changed but I feel like I am. It seems there is a part of me that is trying to come to the surface. It is the type of change that occurs after a large traumatic event but none of that has happened. I just feel different.

It all began last saturday. As an off hand thing, I decided to listen to a meditation video just because and something shifted inside me. I am not sure what but I genuinely felt different after the session. I cannot even remember the video but the next day felt like I was not here as me but I was here as someone else. I swear it is not mass psychosis but I feel...odd. Not bad necesarily. Just different. If anything I feel way better than I have in a while. I feel oddly at peace. Ofc there is still a part of me that feels like I am not where I am supposed to be (like always). But last week felt like getting desensitized to a certain noise and then all of a sudden the noise stops. I feel as though a "noise" in my life has stopped. Could it have been the video or am I just making it all up?

I also feel like I am "purging" in a way. Like I am "shedding" myself of impurities from the past. About 2 weeks ago, I noticed the skin on my neck peeling for no reason. I know that there are most likely so many different explanations for this but it...was so sudden I can't help but think more of it. Nothing has changed for me. I use the same lotions and perfumes so I doubt it is that. I also have not changed the way I clean myself or wash my body so I doubt that is it. It is like I am shedding my old self. I don't know. Maybe I am just overthinking life cause I just feel so...lost....Another thing, I also

Xoxo - Aisha